Queering the Male Gaze: Loïe Fuller and Remaining Unmarked

“To impress an idea I endeavor, by my emotions, to cause its birth in the spectator’s mind, to awaken his imagination, that it may be prepared to receive the image.” — Loïe Fuller What is fascinating about this quote, written by Loïe Fuller in her autobiography, Fifteen Years of a Dancer’s Life, is the phrase … Continue reading Queering the Male Gaze: Loïe Fuller and Remaining Unmarked

The Embodied Archive as Utopian Performance: Mette Ingvartsen’s 69 Positions

“Utopian performativity is often fueled by the past. The past, or at least narratives of the past, enable utopian imaginings of another time and place that is not yet here but nonetheless functions as a doing for futurity, a conjuring of both future and past to critique presentness.” —-José Esteban Muñoz (Muñoz 2009, 128). In … Continue reading The Embodied Archive as Utopian Performance: Mette Ingvartsen’s 69 Positions

I just want to keep on doing what we’re doing until next year.

February 2017 Gasping and flushed between latex and pussy soaked sheets. He says, “I’m here”, as if he’s known I've been needing to hear those words since I was 6 years old. We lay down together. We fuck through the confusion and ambiguity. Hoping the semen will provide some sort of clarity in its secretion. … Continue reading I just want to keep on doing what we’re doing until next year.

An honest and unedited string of thoughts on why I am dancing.

I am dancing because my mom signed me up for dance classes at the Jewish Community Center when I was two. Most young girls get put in dance class. I am dancing because I took Performance class with Jeffrey freshman year, and it was the only thing I looked forward to in my crippling depression. … Continue reading An honest and unedited string of thoughts on why I am dancing.

How to put Your Uterus Back in Place: A Guide to Ridding yourself of Depression, Anxiety, and other Unwanted Emotional States.

Symptoms of hysteria were thought to be result of wandering womb, in which the uterus would float around in the body. The cures for the following symptoms were to put the uterus back in its rightful place. Heaviness in the limbs, Insomnia, Faintness, Irritability, Fluid retention, Heaviness in abdomen, Severe cramps, Continual sighing, Difficulty in breathing, … Continue reading How to put Your Uterus Back in Place: A Guide to Ridding yourself of Depression, Anxiety, and other Unwanted Emotional States.

The Many Gendered Mothers of my Heart

After reading Maggie Nelson's The Argonauts, in which she talks about the "many gendered mothers of her heart"---those who have taught her, inspired her, and shaped her perspective, through their works, teaching, or relationships---I am keen to make my own list. This is a brief list, which I will continue to add to. Judith Butler, Michel Foucault, … Continue reading The Many Gendered Mothers of my Heart